papa mama ='(

'' ketika berjauhan

masih ku rasa

hangatnya kasihmu ayah

betapa ku rindukan redup wajahmu

hadir menemaniku

terbayang ketenangan

yg selalu kau pamerkan

bagaikan tiada keresahan

walau hati mu sering terluka

tika diriku terlanjur kata

tak pernah sekali kau

tinggalkan diriku sendirian

ketika ku dalam kedukaan

kau mendakap penuh pengertian

di saat diriku kehampaan

kau setia mengajarku

erti kekuatan

terpancar kebanggaan

dalam senyummu

melihat ku berjaya

bila ku kegagalan

tidak kau biarkan

ku terus kecewa

dengan kata azimat

engkau nyalakan semangat

restu dan doa

kau iringkan.. ''

d a d

look at me

think back and talk to me

did i grow up

according to plans

do you think

im wasting my times ?

doing things i wanna do

but it hurts when

you disapprove all along

and now i try hard to think

and i just wanna

make you proud

i never be a good

enough for you

i cant pretend that

im alright

and you cant change me

coz we lost it all

nothing last forever

IM SORRY

I CANT BE PERFECT

and its just to late

and we cant go back

im sorry

i cant be perfect
i try not to think
about the pain
i feel inside
did you know
you used to be
MY HERO !
all the days
you spent with me
now seems so far away
and i feel like

you dont care anymore

nothings gonna change
the things that you said
nothing gonna
make this right again
please dont turn your back
i cant plead its hard
just to talk to you
but
you don't understand.

dad,
im sorry.
along all these times,
im very bad person
i know
you never teached me
to be like this
yes,
im a jerk.
im annoying,
im suck,
im the worst.
but,
dad.
this is not what i asked before.
i want my old dad.
i want my dad
who always bring me along
when you go outside
who told me all about myself
who knows my bad
who knows my perfection
who knows my personality
who understands me
more than anyone can do
the one
who i used to kiss and hugs
who cools me down when
im not good
who treat me right
when im sick
who wipes my tears
when i cry
who always be with me
who knows my fears
who is really cares.
i want it dad
i really need it
i know that
something has changed
i never felt this way
dad.
from all my behaviour
i know
you didnt even admit it
yes im stupid
im stubborn
im unpatient
pathetic is not
what i want to hear
nor being it
but,
when can those
come to be real ?
dad,
forgive me.


GOD,
i asked you
a chance
please make all my dreams
do come true
i want my happy family back.
please,
i'm begging.